Futility, And Colours

I think that while some people have interpreted my work as being nihilistic in a negative way, I see it more as speaking about how the lack of intrinsic meaning/purpose is something that frees you up to make decisions on a whim. I think this is reflected in the decisions regarding aesthetics - decisions that have no justification other than being whatever I feel like. Because it could be handled either way. Either:

- the work is pointless, so putting energy into varying colours is pointless, so don't do it,

or

- the work is pointless, so you are free to make decisions that make you happy such as varying the colours.

Although maybe what I'm communicating has changed; I vaguely remember that maybe at one point my work was about complete lack of meaning/purpose, including fulfillment. Now maybe it's more about lack of intrinsic meaning/purpose as something that emphasises the importance of fulfillment.